So I've been thinking about Goddess/God and what I believe about her/him/it/them.  I'm torn between the idea of all gods are one God and the idea of seperate beings rather than just different faces of the same one.  I spent so many years of my spiritual life on the chistian path that it's hard to not feel like I've "changed gods", but if all gods are one then have I?  Or am I just seeing a different aspect - because I really do see it as different.  I don't think I would push my feelings to "bitter" about the whole cristian experience, but it's close.  I really hate the way I was - the judgemental, narrow minded person who looked down my nose on those who were not one of US.  So much so that I just can't look at the cristian god as a positive being .  This makes me sad because I'm not sure I've changed like I would like to think I have - am I still looking down my judgemental nose at those who are not one of US?  A wise friend said I should meditate on what I think about the Divine and follow it to the end and see where it takes me.  Easier said than done with young babies, but I am trying (hence this ramble).   So what do I really think - not what I was taught, not what I think I should think, but really think?  I like the idea of looking at nature for the answer.  Not all of nature is happyhappyjoyjoy.  It's got a dark side - so maybe my goddess does too.  I like the idea of one creative being that is both masculine and feminine but with lesser gods and goddesses with specific areas of focus.  Kinda like the Catholic saints.  I guess this is what I will explore.  Wish me blessings - I still hold a little of that good ol' christian fear.  Sucks, but truth is truth and it is what it is.  Told you this was the ramblings of an ineffective, sleep depribed, over stressed mind.....